yay i'm coming home for a few days i can't wait i'm so fuckin excited and i graduate early to i come home for good when i come back for christmas . YYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

i am missing liz alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all of a sudden i just had an anxiety attack. i'm scared to death about bootcamp.  i know i can do it it's just i'm throwin myself into a completely unknown situation. That's not me at all.  All because of bullshit that happened and i decided to get away from this town knowin i'm leavin everything and everyone i love behind.  I don't know maybe this is just normal jitters but damn if you only felt the panic in my chest right now.  It feels like i can't breath my chest has tightened up so much.  I'm definately wonderin if i made the right decision for my life.  But damn i had to do something with my life eventually. I know why i joined the army and now it just seems so stupid that i let myself get that upset.  That i've put my complete life in other peoples hands and it's not in my own anymore.  man my life is about to change dramatically!!

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